Sunday, 29 January 2017

Where I Have Been & Whats In Store For The Future?

It's been a few month's since I last posted, I had decided to take a break and give myself time some time to really reflect over how much my life has/had changed over the past year. I went through quite a difficult pregnancy, I moved house, I had to learn to be a Mother and accept my life had completely changed and I also had to let go of someone who was a huge part of my life.
Going through all these things has made me grow so much as a person but I didn't give myself time to heal, I was completely overwhelemed, and that's why I needed to take a step back.

I'm now sat here with my beautiful son, who is already 5 months old, and I can honestly say I'm so proud of myself, I've had to overcome a lot of things and seeing my son grow in front of my eyes is the most precious life changing experience I could have ever asked for, it's got me through so many negatives and turned them all positive, for this I'm so incredibly lucky.

There is no guide book to motherhood and I wish I hadn't listened to a lot of other people, because even though, in general babies are the same, the journey each Mother/Father has with them varies, every baby is completely different, some cry a lot, some don't, some like constant attention, some like to sit quietly, and on top of that each day is unpredictable.
I'm very lucky to have a baby that sleeps through and generally very smiley but you can never prepare yourself for bad days, getting no sleep can really mess with your mind, and you forget at times that even when you are asleep, you're never in a deep sleep and your brain is on edge 24/7.
I've suffered with post natal depression and it's not easy, you feel like everything you do is wrong, coping on a daily basis hard and you become very tearful and detached from everything. Women can be afraid to talk about it and no one should feel that way or be too scared or embaressed to ask for help. So for any mummy's that feel like it's not just the baby blues get some advice because it really does help and you need to be 100% for you little ones.
I'm very lucky to have an incredibly supportive family and without them I would be very lost.

As for the future I have so many plans, my blog will slightly change more to motherhood and the reason for this is I feel I stopped writing about my life and what I love, which is the reason I started blogging in the first place, at the moment my life evolves around motherhood and interior design on my new home so I will write about these a lot, however I will still post about fashion and lifestyle topics.

Luka is becoming a brand ambassador like myself which is super exciting, once he's in his own room i'm turning half of my bedroom into a studio where I will have a photography set up, I'm also planning to start my own business by the end of the year.

I'm 100% making 2017 my year, it's going to be full of positivity and adventures with my beautiful boy and I'm honestly so humble each day that I get to share my journey with the world.


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